Here is some of the feedback we received from participants of the recent workshops:

First Gate of Dreaming
CD Tour II
Mexico City, Mexico
Saturday, September 8, 2007

The event turned out to be for me very interesting. I liked very much the "theoretical" part, in which was explained precisely and in detail, what was the meaning the shamans of Ancient Mexico gave to concepts like freedom of consciousness and other things such as "perceiving more than we usually do, beyond the consensus and social agreements."

I really liked the magical passes we did. With the north wind I felt a pleasant and satisfactory sensation of resolution, action without doubts and at the same time decision and steadiness having always in mind the fact that it has all to do with an abstract and impersonal force.

The south wind, I found it similarly stirring, but in a newer way than the north wind because this was a mood that I was not used to live in my ordinary circumstances. It was delicious to enjoy this feeling, so nutritious and regenerative. Another effect that the event had upon me was that of really landing me. It helped me to put aside ideas and thoughts distanced from reality by giving me a more sober view.

I want to thank the CD Tour practice. I had some time not going to seminars and I am glad to see that this new group of instructors had the intent in their skin (Mexican saying: "a flor de piel"). I could perceived how all of the practitioners began to transform and the energy that was created in the place was incredible. Everybody (including the instructors), left aside self-importance, judgments, and everything we load in the first attention. I could notice that with the magical passes I had a radical change in my inner silence and body position…

I liked the question and answer session. I liked a lot because I felt that we could understand what we practiced during the day. I saw that a lot of practitioners had many questions and at the end they were satisfied….Thanks for so wonderful an experience!

I found breathing an important resource. Even though I had the information that it influenced the way I perceive, it was hard for me in difficult situations. For example: I am at the office and my direct boss sometimes gives us certain technical information in a kind manner and I used to consider it very obvious and think that "of course" that info. It's part of our professional knowledge and I start with certain thoughts like: "I know that" "He is saying it wrong" etc. And now with these magical passes, the stalking exercise and the way I use the north wind let me see an aggressive part of me...
Body Position: lazy legs, forehead tense…anxious movement of feet, my lower back curved, discomfort in all my body, chest sink and closed
I also saw that I had left behind certain things that I like because I felt that I failed in certain moments: for example when I procrastinate in intending to learn new technical trends and applications. My dialogue is: "That's for ambitious people not for me", "what laziness". And I forget that learning is a pleasure and leave it behind….

Body Position:
Superficial breathing, head down, neck and upper back tense, mouth tighten, any attention in the middle part, chest closed, feet with no attention.

Overall, the breathing and the stalking exercises helped me to comprehend the importance of breathing. How important it is to open the chest and to pay attention to the feet as a strategy for crucial moments. Even though I know the difficulty that it can be, I am optimistic and this is thanks to you.

Each event of Tensegrity comes with its very particular circumstances. This one took off in the middle of a tempest of feelings. I used to interpret before that the winds of passions and feelings came to me by beating my being. The vision that came up for complementing this perspective was, that in reality, they are caught inside, and actually I do feel like a tornado moving inside myself. When I do the south wind using my belly, I feel able to arrive to that blessed condition in which nothing matters. Saturday, using my old strategy of not thinking about my girlfriend and how much she attracts me, I started to feel myself comfortable in that silent refuge of the magical passes until the stalking exercise confronted me with that position of the assemblage point I'm avoiding.

The energetic winds caught and started blowing again and they liberated themselves with the music and the north wind passes. Then, again the strategy activated itself, I said to myself: "submerge into the present time, do not think about her…

Really, it was and is an exquisite adventure, thanks to all and to Infinity, it is just left for me to send a greeting full of deep and abstract affection, farewell, so long.

I registered for the CD tour as well as to the introductory class. Unfortunately I couldn't arrive in time for the first. When I finally got there it was mid time between this two events. Something came to me as soon as I entered the room, and as soon as the event began that sensation became more and more clear, I wanted to say something, very imperative, it was actually pretty much like wanting to yell, something caught inside wanted to break through. I was kind of disconcerted because there wasn't any apparent motive to this reaction. So I tried myself to calm down, breathe, pass it over and submerge myself into the present time and in what was going on there, the practice, the movements, the practitioners, all. So I did it, and kind of relaxed myself successfully…
We did fragments of the Passes and then they asked us to write down a scene where things didn't work as we wanted. I started to write whatever story came to my head. Actually it came one story that has happened not so far ago and that I'd been having it installed in my head and turning always around since it happened. I considered it like something traumatic or with grave repercussions in my life, at least externally and socially. But then I ended up writing not this story but another one, which had something to do with a more recent time. That is a situation that was going on between a practitioner and me that I didn't take care much of but since that very morning it had revived, I thought it was a good thing to write it.
Basically the situation was that at some point this practitioner and I have stopped talking to each other, or more precisely, I had been thinking that he was kind of avoiding me. And the strange thing was that I felt he had very good reasons for not having anything to do with me. I felt guilty for something I have done but actually I didn't know what was that. So I have accepted the situation without really knowing what it was about. It seemed to me a good thing to explore it now.
Then the instructors asked for someone who wanted to share their discoveries. Again that feeling of wanting, almost desperately, to talk, took possession of me, and again I found myself paralyzed, frozen, unable to move. Someone talked, I could barely hear him or her, much less pay attention. I was focused only on myself and on this strangling sensation. A scene came to me, I wouldn't say it was a total scene but at least it was more clear and overall more specific than the other two. The practitioners kept talking one after another, I kept remembering my scene, and the feeling of pulling it out didn't stop, until a woman talked and I finally distracted from myself to engage in her story. The voice inside me lowered but kept saying "say it, say it, now". The clamor didn't go away at all. It kept resounding but I wasn't willing to intend it. The round of participation got to its ending. We did the Passes in trying to achieve a new view. And then they asked for a new sharing of what had we found. I just had to talk and I did it, finally I asked the word and just talked about what I had found in my story with this review and the Passes. It was good to talk but surprisingly it wasn't totally relieving. Yet I had something inside that was still troubling me….
What I eventually found out was that the story that came to me and my distress about not speaking up in the CD Tour event were the same. In this practice day, I found a repeating pattern of mine: that I do not speak up to others asking for what I want and blame others for ignoring me!
After doing the Passes of north wind, however, I found a new view:
I am always able to be relax. I got fear of using this energetic center because I fear decisions, I most fear being responsible for my decision. Now, this is good because I can tell now that no one else is responsible for me, there is no need that anybody else push me or pull me. I'm always expecting the others to make the first movement because that way I don't have to decide anything and if something goes wrong it would not be my fault, that's a very complacent posture. Now, I can take my decisions and their consequences, if something goes wrong then I'll be able to take it because I'll have taken my choice and then there will be nothing to whine about. Also I can breathe and summon the confidence of the warrior. Thank you!

 

 

Second Gate of Dreaming: Dreaming Together
CD Tour III
Sofia, Bulgaria
September 22 to 23, 2007

I liked immensely the mood of this practice event, which I have experienced as sober, concentrated and dedicated. I had the sensation that we are all moving, as a group.

The pressure of the group allowed me to discover layer under layer in my original scene, as we moved through passes, silence, sounds, passive and active recapitulation: in the beginning it was anger (of being deprived of the place at the table at a party), than I have found out that I was actually yearning for attention, wishing that everybody would acknowledge ME, congratulate ME, and, at the end, doing the third part of predator, I discovered that behind all my turmoil it was a fear of starving, of dying of hunger if I don't get attention (and respectively place at the table). Now I want to continue this journey and discover the original scene.

During the witnessing in galaxy-pass, I was in the moon-row, watching the sun, my body was suddenly struck with intense feeling of uniqueness of this particular moment, which is never to be repeated again! I looked at beings around me in awe and gratitude, totally in NOW, and then I saw the vibration of our movements, each circle vibrating in its own way, making an imprint, a sort of pattern or painting on earth. It was an experience behind words! Thank you all very much!

Thank you so much for the wonderful event, we had!
For me it was very instructive and useful. I found many things for stalking, one of which is my relations with money :)) I started to stalk it, and to examine the models I have from my parents, my grandparents and anyone else, and every situation, that I can remember, where I or someone close to me has deals with money in my life.

Another thing I found is, that the stomach and lungs are my weak place, and the Form of the Sun helps me to make them stronger. Especially in combination with the Earth form.
Another interesting thing is, that doing of the Moon-form somehow opens the door of changes in my life - bigger or smaller changes, but always something happens... This time, what happened was, that I faced the biggest fear in my life - the opportunity to live alone in another country - away from the known things and people close to me. So, we will see...

Thank you one more time and love you all!

The silence was building up gradually every hour during the event and it exploded at the end when performing the Galaxy Communication. The song gave me a shiver, so beautiful - this feeling of longing for the energy body, for the unknown… only such a song can touch it. While performing the Galaxy Form, one could feel the fluctuation of the Sun, the cold precision of the Moon and the liveliness on the Earth. Thank you all for dreaming this together

This event in Sofia - well, it was an explosion of light and beauty, of pure power that could be felt with every breath and every cell of one's body. The most curious thing, you know, 5 days later that infinite affection towards life towards other beings of light and towards self seems to increase, instead of decreasing, gaining peace. Maybe for first time, although this is the 6th or 7th Cleargreen practice-event, there is an understanding of what warrior's affection is. I remember this moment, it was Saturday late evening, I had the chance to gaze around the sports hall and what could be perceived was beyond words - there was this brilliant light that enveloped in a most tender and loving way all of us shining beings, practitioners of Tensegrity, the art of awe. It was touching all of us moving around, playing with each one of us filling the space and each being with an unearthly beauty and joy, dancing. We were performing the pass 'Beyond the Predator's Eye' and it was a moment when we were performing it in harmony, after studying it beforehand. A moment of connectedness...

The stalking exercises felt like 'The theatre of infinity' - practicality and laughter. We felt that applying them often in our everyday life will bring understanding and perception beyond our bravest dreams. We need unbending intent to keep on practicing on our own, after the seminar is over. Thanks for that - useful, powerful.

The most noticeable thing is what I got new enhanced stalking ability I never had before. Immediately after the seminar I started to notice my feelings I just didn't notice (or disregarded) before. They are judgments about other people, my predator's emotions leading to "I want it" that exhaust me a lot, my self-pity, desire to join others in their way of behavior, etc. And the key is what I managed to return to my body position of silence every time I got frustrated, furious, emotional, etc. Maybe it's the first time I managed to keep memory of this position and continued to stalk other body position of mine for so long time. One of the stalking was related even to my feelings about letters I'm getting from Cleargeen. Sometimes reading them I thought "what is this all about? Love? Be good with everyone? I know these kind of people, instead of moving forward, acting they are just making love to each other, or lose their time". Every time these thoughts were like short impulses. But this time I managed to track where it comes from. In my childhood I considered my parents as boring weak people, many times I rebelled against this boredom that I thought surrounds me. So I wanted to be different (most of the time "just wanted", nothing else). I imposed my judging on others. People talking about love also was judged as "lazy people always talking about the same and doing nothing". This was the way I perceived. At the end of this workshop listening to the song "Canto Della Terra" I almost started to burst into tears. Although I didn't understand the words I realized this song was about love to the earth, but this was different kind of love - it didn't include expectations, requirements etc. It was pure love that was always here, lasting forever, fundamental, natural, with no aggression. I still keep the memory of this wonderful feeling.

 

 

Second Gate of Dreaming: Dreaming Together
CD Tour III
Kiev, Ukraine
September 29 to 30, 2007

This wonderful CD Tour was just like the previous one brought a lot of happiness. We think that it is a merit of the marvelous Kyiv practice group which has so many beautiful unbending practitioners and such an astonishing balance between the female and male practitioners!

During this workshop I felt physically the sense of the exercises of gazing again… Looking at the objects I can dedicate very strong attention to the details. Gazing with my eyes closed I feel vaguely but more fully - the volume of the objects, the type of their surface, the material…The combination of these two ways of perception during gazing with a soft gaze gives me the plenitude of perception of small details and at the same time vague but more complete perception of the objects as a whole…

I found out that just merely paying attention to all the details of the subject stops the inner dialogue and brings silence… At the same time the eyes help me focus the intent of what to feel with my energy body…The objects were opening themselves to me deeper and deeper with every gazing: so, gazing at a column speaker first I saw small details of its trimming, then I felt its massiveness, how stable it stands on a thin support, and only later I realized that I am completely missing one more layer of perception - the loud sound that is pouring out of it! To perceive all these aspects at a time - it's such a joy! When I was perceiving the stairs for the arbiter, I felt a long forgotten child's delight again: "Wow, that's a nice thing!" and also I felt strong desire to climb it! and I immediately remembered a story told by one of the Tensegrity instructors how Nagual once was perceiving with delight a simple sound of the chair legs rubbing on the floor!

In the end of the workshop my wife and I, very tired, were strongly attacked by our old patterns that were trying to destroy the state of silence, but we got over it and on the second day we were rewarded by the even more powerful state of silence… I adore this feeling of silence and sobriety, I want to live in it constantly… These workshops are the priceless help, they are leading us to the direction of bigger silence and harmony…

During the final practice of the Galaxy pass I chose the Sun pass and, standing and "radiating" on the practitioners that were inside our Sun circle I felt a perception of our role in this dreaming together.

First of all I would like to thank the organizers and participants of the workshop. I am newcomer and this was the first time that I was at a workshop.

A couple of months ago I started doing tensegrity, since I finished reading the books and began reading a collection of articles. I was going to the workshop as if for a reconnaissance. It was interesting to see the achievements of Castaneda in our time. I had a bunch of questions I wanted to ask and among them there were some questions that worried me during the last year.
Mildly speaking I was stunned by what I perceived. In some moment during the workshop I felt happiness and I was filled with love to all the people in the hall. This feeling was strong, constant and it passed into the love for all the universe. It happened to me for the first time. My internal dialogue calmed down considerably and until now it doesn't bother me much. I received a strong impulse for the action, I felt the availability and a strong wish to practice the modern types of recapitulation. In that strong emotional state I felt I reached something which is hard to be described. Some tender dense agglutinative force was present in the hall. I got answers to all my questions without asking any of them. I am delighted. Thank you.

Thank you so much for the splendid workshop. I can say absolutely sincerely that it was one of the most powerful workshops in my life. During the first day when we were practicing the pass "Beyond the Predator's Eye" I realized very clearly the pattern of conflict with the people around me, and during the witness practice I saw my arrogance and self importance. Of course, I didn't like it at all. At night in my dream I was doing passes and in some strange way it explained to me how to use my energy, and what I should change so that not to waste it too much. During the second day I managed to understand better how to practice the passes of the Sun, the Earth and the Moon. I knew them before just like "Beyond the Predator's Eye", as I practiced them in our St. Petersburg practice group, but now that I learned so many interesting details, the passes "became alive". I was particularly impacted by the Galaxy Pass that we practiced to the music. For a moment I saw some of my complexes, quite strong ones, they were those that I hadn't known how to deal with before. In the moment of practicing the pass they became as clear as noonday.

Also during the workshop I got acquainted with two practitioners from Moscow who I had known through the Internet but I had never talked to them in person. We had a wonderful talk, and on the one hand I had a chance to get to know something new about the Tensegrity, and on the other hand - to get rid of another bunch of my secrets. And when we together with other practitioners were going back to St. Petersburg we had plenty of time to discuss our findings and it helped us gain more understanding about them and to "arrange" them.

As a result I made a list of fifteen concrete tasks that I'm going to practice at least until the January classes in Moscow. For example to look at the world around me with a soft broad view and feel gratitude for everything it gives you. And to perceive the world through the Earth as through my womb, and to be in constant contact with it. These tasks are clear and real for me, and I see no obstacles for fulfilling them. I just need to make every effort on this way!

Beautiful sentient beings!

It is remarkable that I know the Sun pass for quite a long time, and only at this practice my perception has changed. During the gazing I saw the objects I chose the way I see them in my daily life. And then as we closed our eyes, these objects came to life. I saw their mood, their story. For example a metal arc fixed to the wall told me how it had been painted, how the color of the paint had been chosen, how carefully it had been treated when she was being made. About its interaction with the wall. It feels that it is connected with the entire world: the arc itself, the wall, the building, the earth, etc. It is pleased with its destiny and its state now. Every object I gazed at was unique. Every object has its infinity. If I open myself to the world, the world opens itself to me. To be more precise, the world has always been open, but I haven't been aware of it before.

And one more new thing that I saw, what I've been missing all my life is to love, just love without any expectations. When I am in such position of the assemblage point my old world of petty wishes falls through. I have no fear so I have nothing to defend.

Thanks to the city of Kiev, to al the practitioners, thanks to the wonderful beings who prepared this practice.

The practice Second Gate of Dreaming was important for me.
My inner state was different from the regular. I'd call it the state of power: calm confident gaze is directed at the level of the horizon, still, open breath. During my interactions I had relaxed contemplative state - without any look-out, no readiness to defend. In some moment when I had a talk with someone I felt constrained in my chest area, and I just straightened my shoulders, raised (opened) my face.

At the witness practice I had a theme: "I felt resentment for my friend - I was waiting for his phone call and he never called!" My dialogue: "I felt so bad, and you never called me!"
In no way I could find a new view. And then the witness proposed me to pass to the second part of the practice when we changed roles with my witness. And then I saw the scene with the eyes of my friend. He finally called; he had so cordial feelings to me. And for some reason I'm giving myself airs on the other end of the line, presenting some incomprehensible claims. All of a sudden I saw how comic this situation was, and it became just fun. I couldn't expect it! (Although before that I took it so hard). My new view:
1) I saw I exaggerated my self importance.
2) I put myself in my friend's shoes - indeed he had some business to do.
3) I treated the situation with humor and cordiality. My new words: "Dear, it's been a long time since I heard some endearing words from you…" And in response I'll tell him something wonderful.

The Sun Pass. When I was gazing at an object with my eyes closed in my thoughts I extended all my fibers from my front and my back on it. And suddenly my nose turned on, it just moved and started inhaling the sensation of that object. In my ordinary life I also often try to feel a person or an object by breathing in, but this time my nose was fully engaged in the job.

The Galaxy Pass surprised and amazed me. I saw how different we are. We were divided into three elements. And at the same time we were one. I wanted to touch the people who were forming the Moon circle with me. I was their part, and they were a part of me. And I had a wish to touch them as a part of me. (And so I did).

The unity of the elements of the Earth, the Moon, the Sun was magic. In our ordinary life the people are separated, everyone is running on his own business. And all of a sudden you realize your connection with the Moon people and then you see further. That being a part of this element you are connected both with the Earth and the Sun, and you see the harmony of our Galaxy, and what a miracle it is that you are a part of it.