Feedback from the Tensegrity® workshop held in Joshua Tree, California, September 2010:
Energetic Facts:
What Do You Know For Sure?

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Commentary and Recording of Luz de Mi Vida arranged and sung at the workshop.

Since returning from the Joshua Tree workshop over Labor Day weekend, I have been doing the Coming Home form 3 times a day. I find it helps immensely to clear my head, and reminds me that all decisions, no matter how big or small, are all equal in the light of our final coming home when we pass from this earth.

I was immediately astounded by the sky full of stars at Joshua Tree. I love being able to see the Milky Way, and the air was literally swarming with energy the night we hiked with the wolves. I could see my connection to each star arriving as a faint glow in the night, and I imagined how connected the Mayans must have felt to all of it.
 
My connection with the wolves was through the heart. To meet them was to fall in love with them. The last time we practiced the wolf form together, I could feel this link in the howl that I gave – they truly are our brothers and sisters, and a reminder of our need to reconnect with mother earth. I have practiced the wolf form each night this week, and almost immediately after the first time, smelled a strange odor coming from a vent in the house. I was able to head off a catastrophe with a leaky water heater as a result.
 
The recapitulation exercises helped me better define some of my patterns, and since then I have been able to recall more clearly other past events for review. Having participated in many other esoteric practices, I was totally refreshed by the straight-forward approach to shifting energy.
 
My witness played awesome flute. I am honored to have worked with someone who’s attended Tensegrity® sessions more than 50 times.

Finally, the desert served as an incredible healing force throughout the weekend. That it was in full bloom was an extraordinary gift, and I found myself soaking it in, from the smallest leaf to the biggest flower. Thank you so much for all of your efforts.

This is my first Tensegrity® workshop. The understanding I’ve sought for a long time became a little clearer in the short 48 hours of the gathering. Among many things, I confirmed I had already been on a path to here for a long time. This workshop was like a homecoming. I thank the facilitators for graciously sharing with heart, affection and abandon. I won't write all that comes to mind. It would be a small book.

Releasing the Separation: Coming Home — whole body shaking and energy rippling outward through the luminous being and beyond. Easy to remember. I practice it several times, everyday. With it as a conduit, I am intending listening to and connecting with my energy body.

The Witness … sublime kindness. A much kinder usher into the mood than I could have wished. I humbly express my gratitude once more. I welcome the technique given us for tracking. It facilitates recollection and I am more comfortable with pursuing solo practice. It helps me to release the emotional attachment of memories and the tendency to avoid recapitulation in order to avoid the emotion.

The Wolf Form and the wolves. The grace and serenity of  touching shoulder, spiraling arms and hands, and grasping the starry link to Orion the Hunter and Canis Major. I feel something awakening like morning’s first moments, or night’s last, when you’re not asleep, yet not fully awake. It’s a gesture of intending, for me.

Wolf Form… I recall that it was first learned by seers of ancient times. I can’t imagine what was happening in the world 10,000 years ago. To hear that these magical passes were dreamed by them and passed down from Naguals to apprentices generated in me a powerful respect for the form despite its initial awkwardness.

The Wolf form is, for me, a different sort of “form” in the modern world where forms have boundaries, limitations. I abandoned myself to the moving shapes and felt an ever-shifting flow that comes from somewhere other than myself. I entered it and traveled along the lines. If I could silence thoughts and shake off engrained notions of social, political, religious acculturation I eventually felt a mild elation like a child experiencing one of life’s wonders for the first time. Is this related to the notion of affection and abandon that Tensegrity® teachers/facilitators refer to?

I felt the newness walking with the wolves at night in the desert. The silence of all there, the listening to the silence, and a humble hopefulness that a mystery will suddenly become clear. For me, this was insight into whatever animates wolves, perhaps the full use and expression of the senses, or another sense I am not familiar with, and an interpretation system that links directly to things not obvious to humans, but are as real as anything material.

Our wolf host said that humans cannot fully know what it’s like to be a wolf. Later, he said that these beings with whom we were walking lost something that their wild relatives still have. Like them, we are not whole. Yet, these beings are descendant companions in evolution of our human ancestors. It's as though wolves are our ancestors, too. And we have shared the same fates, same losses. Still, we have much to learn from them about how to use the senses, not only to discern the world around us, but to bridge the gap between the physical and energy body, to rediscover our true human heritage, and to see our own luminosity.

Nyei Murez is a hero and I’m glad that she was motivated to tell us her story. She has lent me a little of her courage and reminded me of those valuable, yet unrecognized, people in my life to whom I need to voice my affection.

I really felt the call to suspend judgment and abandon myself to discerning signals from the spirit during the group circles and I think I tapped into some ancient memory, or practice, of a tribal culture. While the sense is not crystal clear, I feel I have a better footing for understanding my role in the packs I am part of.

I find myself on the frontier of language, beyond which point words lose accuracy. What an incredible struggle we are engaged in ... as individuals and as groups. This indeed is a different time and what makes it so is that it is our time, our era of our existence. I value the facilitators' efforts (and Carlos Castaneda's) to adapt magical passes to these times. They say that ancient seers dreamed the magical passes in heightened awareness, and wanted to replicate them in normal awareness. I am more certain now since participating in this workshop that my quest has been, and is, the same.

Near the end of the workshop, I sensed that perhaps we practitioners will meet again. I felt this sensation flowing through others. We didn’t exchange email addresses or phone numbers, not even names, in some cases, even expecting that it will be so. But I (we) quietly accepted the possibility that we may never cross paths again and we (I) hope that we have done our very best in this magical meeting. I trust in the ability to find the way back on the energetic connections that were made.

Ok, something about the wolves made them the best part of the weekend for me: Wolf Kisses! So what, I’m a man but I’ll tell you, when those big usually-wild eyes looked at me, sniffed and then slathered my face I knew one thing. I am A-OK. I know a lot of people received incalculable validation from those beings on four feet and this is equally invaluable. Thank you for centering the workshop around them and what they represent.

First I want to express my gratitude to all the beings that made this possible, I truly felt I was in my pack. My sensation is that I dreamed a magical place, with magical people and animals, something in me is still there and it won’t return; in its place stillness is in everything as if I was still dreaming.

I experienced all the Tensegrity® forms internally, specially the Wolf Form, I felt like one of them during the hike

When making eye contact with some of them something in me recognized them and that is still awake in me and makes me perceive the world in a different way.

From the recapitulation I learned how to change some of my patterns by listening to my witnesses and their contributions, sharing their own experiences helped me.  I can recognize the usefulness of expressing myself with clarity, defeating the fear of saying what I feel, and what I will be willing to give without having to please anyone.  I go home with the purpose of working on those patterns, bringing clarity to my life and clearing up my history.
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.

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